Life or something like it...

**This was actually something I wrote in October... It's so cool to see how much God can change my life in no time at all.**

October 2, 2008:

It's evaluation time once again. I feel that everyone gets to some point in their life where they can't help but look around and ask "how the heck did I get here?!" As a senior in college, this evaluation process is basically defining what very well could be the rest of my life. I have always been told that I have a lot of potential... that I could change things if I wanted to. This summer, in a very awkward conversation, someone basically told me I was going to change the world. "Some people are meant to live, and some people are meant to change the world... you are one of those people." What do you say to that, right? Well, I said thank you. It was all I could think of at the time, and followed my appreciation with a: "I wish I knew how I was going to do that." I was told that I would figure it out; yeah well, I haven't figured it out yet.

I was inspired recently by a song. As a musician it is very easy for me to just LISTEN to music, but not really listen. I listen for clever melodies and beautiful piano riffs, but sometimes the lyrics just fly by. Well, for some reason this day I tuned into the words... and it was as if that day, God was truly speaking to me:

"The earth was shaking in the dark.
All creation felt the Fathers Broken Heart.
Tears were filling Heaven's Eyes,
The day that True Love died, the day that True Love died.
When blood and water hit the ground,
Walls we couldn't move came crashing down.
We were free and made alive,
The day that True Love died, The day that True Love died."

How I choose to change the world will be revealed when I realize I am not the one changing the world. I am a vessel. All things were, are and will be done through the power that lives inside me. Yes, He lives... that's a key concept that we as Christians miss and those are the moments that we get most discouraged, thinking that we cannot do the things that we were meant to do. Heck, if I know how my great story will play out, but my first step is just acceptance - God break my heart for what breaks yours. "For to be sure, he was crucified in weakness, yet he lives by God's power. Likewise, we are weak in him, yet by God's power we will live with him to serve you." - 2nd Corinthians 13:4

Allow God to be the author of your remarkable story.

With love. Kristen.