Nicaragua.

Things have been a little crazy to say the least. It's times like these, I forget to remember myself. Not in a selfish way, but in a normal healthy one. A way that allows for growth and stability. All I have right now is digression and chaos. Sometimes I try to think how to fix it, but I quickly realize that it's no simple fix.

I NEED to be in Africa. My heart is already there... I find myself getting lost in my thoughts and memories of South Africa. I have to remind myself that it's "not yet!" Live for today, for the now. Don't think about tomorrow, because tomorrow will become yesterday, and yesterday is too late!

As I prepare my mind for the week ahead, I can't help but think about how unprepared I am, but that's how it should be. No time to think about or conjure up expectations. No time to anticipate... that's all I do is think, dwell, ponder... There's a saying, "The farthest distance between you and God is 18 inches: the distance between your heart and your head." So "thinking" is a dangerous thing for me, especially right this moment! A dangerous thing that I do too much. I'm excited to see what God is going to do in the next week, and I'm not going to try and define it or limit God. He doesn't belong in the box that I shut Him in...

It's time to break free and let go. I feel there will be a lot more to this process in the weeks to come.

This is just the beginning...