So lately Life has been giving me a hard time. I realize that most of the time Life has no concern for my well-being, or the many things I have going on, but instead chooses to bombard me at the most inopportune times. Especially, when things seem to be going "well." Life appears to be a calloused jerk, right? So what/who is this Life? Good question.We oftentimes gauge how our life is going by the things happening in the world around us. The problem with that is we are told to align our lives with the eternal. Not to live with our head in the clouds, but to be conscience of God, who has control. As the world falls apart around us, we may find our faith and hope and joy stronger than ever. When the storms come it is better to submerse ourselves in all things spiritual, not all things physical and tangible.
"Life is love. Life is pain. Life is something WE can't take away. When Life's unbearable, we see God's light. But how can a light dry my eyes??" I wrote these lyrics for a dear sweet friend of mine who passed away long before her time. Mama Yoli. It speaks to the hurt that we feel in loss, but also speaks to the discomfort of faith during those times. We see encouragement in the Word and in God's workings, but all we really want is His embrace. We want to feel... consolation. Life, this world, our pain separates us from truly feeling.
Robert Rupert, my grandfather: a man of his word and a man of God's word. After battling bone cancer for over a year, he decided to finally back down. He now awaits the time that the Lord will call him home. It is a long, slow, excruciating wait. Patience is endangered. You get to a point where you don't want to lose him, but you despise the suffering endured. I found myself lost and torn. Death is something we rejoice in as Christians, but it never fails that we are terrified of it... No one really wants to die.
I wrote my grandfather a song. Just to express a little bit of what, I believe, my whole family is feeling. I had the opportunity to play it for him... I titled it: Poppa's Lullaby.
"Close your eyes,
Sleep a while,
And rest your soul.
In a place, where the grace
Overflows.
Close your eyes,
Sleep all night,
And know He's waiting.
For your heart, to embark
On this journey.
And the pain will fade,
When you find your true peace.
As you rest assured,
In your Savior's embrace.
And with arms wide open,
You will welcome us in.
On that day, we meet you there.
Green pastures, still waters,
In this valley I will walk.
But I will not fear,
For you are near
In my dark.
I am weary, heavy laden,
But He restores my soul.
And calls me home,
Into the whole of His heart.
You will fly on that day when He calls..."
Rest in Him,
kristen
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